log's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- - i set up a new acquaintance with an old friend. i didn't think they were a great match, but they both needed to go on a date (& get over their ex-gf/ex-crush). let's call the girl pb & the boy foxy. they've gone out a couple of times (which is more than i expected) & they're not telling me much (with good reason) but (i think) pb has started to use foxy as arm candy. there was this party she was dreading b/c everyone was going to be a couple & she didn't have a date & this other guy she had dated was going to be there (but with a different girl), and so on. afterwards, i asked if the party was fun. she said, 'i asked foxy to come with, foxy was a hit.' so. mostly i want to shake her & say, wtf are you doing? foxy's so much cooler than you are! yeah, he'd make an awesome date, he's funny & charming & fun & cute. but if yr just using him to prop up yr ego -- just go to yr company party alone, they're not gonna know you're dateless b/c you're a shallow bitch. ...um i haven't actually said anything to her b/c it's easy to misread shit over IM. & maybe she's in denial about her true feelings. also, foxy is old enough to take care of himself. right? i've meddled enough. although he has a tendency to get stuck with crazy emotionally needy chicks. i should tell him something. like stress that i don't know pb that well. also i HATE being called 'mel'. i need to tell pb that as well. i feel like i have already. also, this picture is so strange. there are also lots of weird pug videos on youtube. i highly recommend watching them when you hate everything, even if it makes me disappointed in my ancestors for breeding such a bulgy-eyed mini-beast. 9:00 a.m. - 2007-10-25 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- no more they come in all sizes! 11:10 a.m. - 2007-07-01 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- blog on blog posting things online makes me a little ocd, like it is too potentially public & permanent to say anything, at least not anything solid. except then it's like a big announcement of your neuroses. like, 'hey i'm here, just not at this exact spot, per se. hang on while i cover all the other spots.' anyway. it feels awkward, the vastness vs the smallness of it all CLICK RIGHT NOW. IM on the other hand, is fkg awesome. esp if you forget something, like maybe where they're going for vacation this summer & when & why, you can look it up later. email is nice but explodes or disappears too easily. there's always the phone, but then there's the threat of silence. & it's so aggressive! all i'm saying is, it was nice to read yr new blogs & everyone's forum-commenting & i admire yr ability to write online like that 2:43 a.m. - 2007-06-06 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- lj vs blogger vs xanga yes, same person, more or less. um, on livejournal people can comment on each post & you can write back (like you did). you can also be notified if someone comments. you can control whether comments are allowed or not. you can have 'friends' which lets you read all of your friends' posts on one page. you can set up filters so that only your friends or some of your friends can read your posts. or you can set it to private so only you can read it. you can 'tag' your entries which will let you read all the entries on one topic. and... i dunno if it's better than the other online diaries around (like xanga or blogger). oh wait, the internet says: xanga's for teenage girls. livejournal's also for girls. blogger's for serious ppl. livejournal has a goat for their mascot though. i think the choice is pretty clear. also, teenage girls have more needs than non-teenage girls. and livejournal is very good at providing for those needs better and before the other blog svcs do. and xanga's ugly so that leaves livejournal. btw, i got your package back a couple months after i sent it! it was all beat up and the candy wasn't so good and the pasta was broken, etcetc. but the hotsauce was intact. anyway. i'm sorry it never got to you. and finally, if you need a cake recipe, this is very good -- with or without the nuts. we made a batch of whipped cream & raspberries to go with it & it was amazing watching this skinny blonde girl scarf 1/4 of a bundt cake down. don't be alarmed by how thick the batter is. 11:01 a.m. - 2007-04-14 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- do it i think you guys should get fancier diaries at livejournal.com and then be my friend there instead of here so's i can read yr posts without clicking around so much. and then you can comment and whatever like you've been wanting to. yes? fun! it's easy. and free. don't be scared. happy 6 days after yr birthday, nate & alison btw 9:36 a.m. - 2007-04-13 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- no it's happening wha? t? no! you're not simple but you might be acting lazy... just read the first sentence here. please. and take a look at the pretty chart to the right. not that you hafta believe the non-exxon-funded scientists when you're covered in temperature-sensitive skin. it's possible that global warming is really just a big scam started by the a/c industry & hawaiian tropic. i know i know i should turn off the space heater and wear another 2 sweaters before the climate gets more extreme. so never mind global warming. have you seen this? things are fkd up: but i still love bacon also i went to the dentist yesterday for the first time in years & it was awesome! she & my mom have successfully implanted the fear of gum disease in me, i'm flossing every day from now on. 8:07 a.m. - 2007-02-07 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- orientation while i still care: renter's insurance is good. having all yr passwords stored on yr computer is convenient but maybe not so good. salads are good. growing plants is fun. it is not ok to call ppl orientals esp after someone tells you that it's derogatory & 'i think it's more specific/like the way it sounds' does *not* make it ok either, nor does it make you 'neutral' b/c you've been informed & can no longer claim ignorance. and it is NOT more specific unless you ARE using it in the derogatory way! and your willingness to refer to your own ethnic background in racial slurs does not make it ok to use it on other ppl. it's really not that complicated -- let's forget the history and how words acquire meaning for a little bit. we'll simplify by saying any racial slur is like calling a person an asshole, based on their race. they say, 'please don't call me that, i prefer my real name.' you say, 'but asshole just rolls off the tongue better. i don't really mean to imply that you are all the things that one typically thinks of when one calls someone an asshole. i don't use it that way. i'm neutral, i'm not trying to be annoying.' ANNOYING?! how does refusing to acknowledge a person's [or a community's] self-definition/dislike of being called something w/negative connotations, and ALSO refusing accepted use of language and insisting on your 'own' language/definition [which just HAPPENS TO BE what you acquired from the empirical racist etcetc language] = 'neutral'? especially when it is not that goddamn hard to say 'asian' or even 'far-east asian' instead of 'oriental'? are you writing a fucking POEM for a 19th century audience? was that confusing b/c asshole is too extreme? let's make it more petty then & say 'oriental' = 'missy' then, since sometimes ppl call me that. 'missy' doesn't really mean anything & it is a valid nickname for my full name, but it rhymes w/prissy & i don't like it. and i'd tell you and also, nobody [that i associate with] calls me that. and if you insisted on calling me that, then you'd be obnoxious, even if you claimed 'neutrality' b/c you don't mean it insultingly, especially since 'missy' doesn't carry that much weight as an insult. the point is, calling ppl orientals is obnoxious when you are aware of the fact that it's not ok [in the US anyway]. what makes you think that your preference for the word 'oriental' trumps an entire community's desire not to be called that? especially when the larger community respects & accepts that wish? FURTHERMORE -- uh. i think i have a problem w/facing real problems & that i channel the anger into other small pointless shit. but it's still wrong to call ppl orientals! it's also wrong to call asians 'chinamen'! AND it's wrong to assume that asians can't speak english or that they're chinese or that they're japanese if dress differently or that the chinese food that they sell at chinese restaurants is any kind of authentic chinese food and -- argh -- fuck. if only there were a way to drink beer and eat ice cream at the same time. wait! i have vodka! i am a genius! except that i really like smoking more than drinking. and this really belongs on the other blog but i don't feel like making this performance artist feel bad. or worse, more self-righteous. 8:53 p.m. - 2006-04-27 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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